My “Oh My God! Get Me Off This Ride!” Total Meltdown
I’m sharing my meltdown in the spirit of Transparency…
Last month I bought a house.
I didn’t even know I was in the market. But then I saw it, and that was that.
The house buying process was surprisingly fun and easy, and I even came in $50,000 under budget!
It was AFTER the purchase, when we had to actually MOVE into the new place, that I completely fell apart.
I’ve had two weeks of panic attacks, crying, grief, regret, trouble breathing, despair, and anxiety.
Because all change brings death–death of the old, of who you’ve been, of what you’ve known, of what has worked (and not worked) in the past.
Even good change.
And I had a lot to grieve. I LOVED the 1927 townhouse I was renting, and the neighborhood I was renting it in. I thought I’d live there for the next 40 years. I also dug that my husband and I had our own separate places–2 blocks apart. We were together every day, but we had a lot of space, too.
Ultimately marriage (12 weddings in 12 countries to the same guy, in the last 12 months) changed everything for me. (See video of our first 11 weddings.)
I started looking at the numbers–my rent was coming to about $100,000 ever 3 years, with no equity. Ouch! And my husband and I were both looking at taking our relationship to the next level.
This was totally the right thing to do. And I’ve been a train wreck through the whole process!
This will, of course, all work out. When in doubt, I ask my “Money Honey.”
I get that this may come off as privileged white girl whining. It totally is.
I’m only sharing my meltdown because I’ve been a coach long enough to recognize that falling apart is a very common human response to massively upgrading your life. Not always, but often. Sort of like giving birth to a new baby. Or growing pains.
So if you’re on the verge of taking a giant leap in your life–or in the thick of it now–keep going. And talk to your Money Honey!
Namaste for now,
PS. The new house and the new city are pretty glorious.
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